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[28 Jun 2007|10:48pm] |
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summers beettterrr. beeeen hanging out with kaylaa a ton cuz all of our freinds have pretty much gone temporarily insane.
but its alll goood.
besdies the face that my car got vandalized on camera at work.
stupid bitches.
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[23 Jun 2007|07:44pm] |
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and i don't understand by the touch of your hand
i would be the one to fall.
i miss the little things
oh, i miss everything about you.
summer sucks
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[27 May 2007|12:02am] |
i hope you're happy now.
because i know i'm not.
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[21 May 2007|03:55pm] |
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so pretty much, in a nutshell, prom sucked. i knew it would. but it a lot was worse than what i imagined. anyways i'm not going to bitch about it because thats just lame. but all i'm going to say is that the only highlight of my night was the fact that there was dunkin donuts coffe at after prom. yeah. life sucks again. but its not like i'm not used to it. peace out.
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[08 May 2007|08:07pm] |
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this is a quote from my favorite book "the truth about forever" by sarah dessen wich prettty much explains my life:
"that was the thing ; you just never knew.
forever was so many different things.
it was always changing ; it was what everything was really about.
it was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant.
or any instant i wished would last and last.
but there was only one truth about forever that really mattered.
and it was that it was happening ; right then, and every moment afterwards.
Look,there. Now.Now.Now."
i'd marry that quote if i could.
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[09 Apr 2007|09:34pm] |
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so i havn't written in this journal in prettty much forever. probly because i think livejournal is the biggest joke of life..but watever. so life right now, i have to admitt is pretty amazing. i havn't been this happpy in . well a long time. this weekend was pretty coool:friday i skippped schoool and watched center stage then hung out with ben (: thennnn later leahh came over and we went to dunkin donuts and cruised around town like wickkked cool kids and listened to avril lavigne. then saturday i went to cape cod bagel and went to the malllllll. got a sweet shirt for pac sun. then i went to the providence place mall. easter sucked. i went to the 99. kdsajlk yupppp (: <33
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[23 Nov 2006|01:22am] |
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this weekend i competed in the miss massachusetts teen usa pageant..much to my objection. in a way, i'm kind of glad i went, it was a fun experience in some respects. but it was also very stressfull and conflicted with my sr. southeast auditions wich i was pisssed about. andd pretty much i was an idiot because i went spray tanning and i looked like pocohantas for about 2 days. afkjdakl so besides from looking like a burn victim i got my hair rehilighted and now i'm almost platnium blonde. which..uh isn't that cute. but anyways i made it into the semi-finals and got to compete again on sunday. i had to do onstage question wich was not fun at all..and of course bathing suit. so i pretty much decided i'm never doing a pageant again in my life after this. i hate how they're supposed to be "confidence builders" ..hmm no. pretty much i wanted to kill myself after looking at all the gorgeous people there that knew how to do make up and their hair all "pageantry ish". in regular life i'm pretty much content (ish) with the way i look then i got to this pageant and i pretty much relized i'm not pretty in any shape or form soooooooo yeah i'm done with that. i'd rather be confident with the way i look regularly then go to these stupid things and feel like a peice of shit. not fun. but i met a lot of great girls tho..people i'd prob be like bfffffs with if they lived near me.
anyways. on a lighter note. i got 2nd chair in all cape! how?? i have no idea. i think i suck and i had a horrible audition. but i guess not? oh well. watevs. no one knows wat 2nd chair means so i tell all my freinds and theyr'e like...yeahh thats great??
umm i get my license in 7 weeks exactly today! i'm soo incredibly pumped. i'm beggging my parents for a blute jetta....but they're still "decideing". which prob means no. but watevs.
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[16 Oct 2006|12:25am] |
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this weekend was pretty boring. i went to the roo bar on friday for my dads birthday wich was pretty chill...even tho i couldn't pronounce half the things on the menu. then saturday was my first day of work at windfall..ehh it was pretty cool i guess? a lotttt better then bussing at firefly. then that night did absolutly nothing...i think i called chelsea but thats it. then suday i went to my orientation for miss teen massachusetts usa!!! i guess i'm excited for it? its wickkked intense and i'm scared. its also the same weekend as sr southeast tryouts and i was reallllly mad i coudn't do them both. i'd rather do southeast but my moms like forcing me to do teen usa. buuut i think it will be fun..me and chels might be rooming together but idk. i def dont' wanna room with lindsey i'd like cry. but i also met a lot of other girls there that seemed wicked chill. ahhh i still need to go tanning and shit and get a new bathing suit...ewww. orientation was like 5 million years long and i wanted to shoot myself but oh well. but in the end i got to go to starbucks...and it made the day like 10 times better.
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[13 Sep 2006|03:26pm] |
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school has started and i already feel like i'm failing every class. i already knoww i'm going to fail chem at some point in my life...so yeah. school especially sucks..even more than normal..becasue i keep getting like blank stares from him. like i'm nobody special. i guess i've never been anybody ..and i thought i would be. i was stupid to think so. and to think that something would finally happen. well. it did. but i guess it was nothing to him. i was nothing. this sucks. afjeakjrelkhj.
goodbye lullabye
by:gone til november
can't wait another day
I'm fading in the rain
It kills me that I care
You cut me like a razor blade
You can see the pain
It's written on my face
What did you think
I'm just another fling
I didn't mean a thing to you
Here's your goodbye lullabye goodnight
Shut your mouth hush don't you cry
It's too late 'cause now I'm gone
And there's no more you and I
All you touched in me you tore
You cut me open raw
I've never been so low
Held me down until I drown
Now how you like me now
I left you high and dry
What did you think
I'm just another fling
Now it's too late for you
Were through
Here's your goodbye lullabye goodnight
Shut your mouth hush don't you cry
It's too late 'cause now I'm gone
And there's no more you and I
Never gonna wanna pick you up
Never gonna hold you when you fall
Never gonna save you from the drama that you cause
Never gonna wonder where you are
As long as it's far away from me
Now I got to end it all goodnight
Here's your goodbye lullabye goodnight
Shut your mouth hush don't you cry
It's too late 'cause now I'm gone
And there's no more you and I
Here's your Goodbye lullabye goodnight
Shut your mouth hush don't you cry
It's too late 'cause now I'm gone
And there's no more you and I
It's your goodbye lullabye
...so that pretty much explains my life right now.
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[04 Sep 2006|01:00am] |
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ahh summer is over and its all wayy to depressing. actually, this summer has beeen wicked boring aside from meeting amzingly hot kid from michigan and..ok well thats it. its september 4th, so technically its a school night. even tho its like 1 in the morning. so toninght was cool i guess....i spent my last day of summer bowling and going fishing with my neighbors and their girlfreinds and getting ditched by this kid that i thoguht liked me. well. watev. soooo yeah. not a very eventful last day of summer.
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[11 Aug 2006|06:01pm] |
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9 through 1
--9 LASTS--
1. cigarette: never
2. movie seen: coming to america
3. phone call: grillo..haha
4. cd played: motion city soundtrack
5. bubble bath: wow..do i fit in my bath hahaha
6. time you cried: a while ago. i can't even remeber
7. time you stayed up ALL night: june 17th haha..how do i remeber that??
8. time you left the state you live in: like saturday. i went to providence
9. drink: vitamin water!
--8 HAVE YOU EVER--
1. Dated someone: yee. dont' wanna go there tho
2. Skinny dipped: yuppp.
3. Kissed somebody and regretted it: yup.
4. Fallen in love: sure.
5. Lost someone you loved: yes.
6. Depressed: yes.
7. Drunk and thrown up: hahaha. yeah...
8. Cried yourself to sleep: yeah
--7 FRIENDS--
1. isabel
2. lindsey(sorta. we like hate eachother on and off tho)
3. ben
4. jon
5. kevin(michigan)
6. mark
7. sean
--6 THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY--
1. woke up
2. myspaced it
3. watched next
4. got a mani/pedi
5. got my eyebrows waxed
6. packed for my pageant tomorow!
--5 FAVORITE THINGS--
1. music
2. tanningg
3. parties
4. shopping
5. pageants
--4 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL PRETTY MUCH ANYTHING TO--
1. i don't
2. tell
3. anyone
4. anything
--3 WISHES--
1. to get a social life
2. to get freinds
3. get in shape?
--2 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE--
1. get married
2. have kids
--1 THING YOU REGRET--
1. bobby johnson hahahaha. wtf
k so i stole this from my long lost freind jen from all cape. haha sorrry.
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[11 Aug 2006|11:05am] |
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so this past week i've been hanging out with these 2 chiller kids from conneticut. soooooo random. we went to provincetown randomly on monday. haha and like rolled down mainstreet blasting "what is love" from night at the roxbury. yeah cuz thats wat cool kids do on monday nights in provincetown apparently? and we almost got arrested. that was an experience i dont' ever want to relive in my life again. so i stopped hanging out with them for the most part cuz they sketch me out a little.
last night was fun tho. i hung out with my long lost freinds jon ben marko brian and timmy and all these other kids and we went bowling haha and to the 99 and then played poker for like 2 hours. and oh yeahh..um freak storm last night?? hail?? yeha i had to walk home in that like all the way down the street. that was pretty..fun? haha. i kinda just relized that i only hang out with guys. i dont' have like girl freinds. weird haha i think i need to find some. wich i dont' think is happening any time soon. but watev.
soooo tomorow i leave for national american miss!!! really excited. kinda.
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[05 Aug 2006|10:03pm] |
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sooo summer. sucks. haha pretty much. i havn't really been doing anything. and i got fired from my job so that was pretty cool. actually i hated it so watev. i go to the beach like everyday now. its fun. i went to surf drive the other day with isabel. i got wickedd tan. i was so happy haha. well jon and ben and everyones down for 3 weeks. yeah i dont' think they like me anymore. they get wicked annoyed with me. its kinda sad..i wish it was like it used to be. but its never been the same since.. yeah. well today i went to providence and i got a make over at MAC!!! the lady put it on too heavy i think. idk. i don't wear a lot anyway so it was like new to me or w.e. but it looked good haha. and i got sum stuff for my pageant next weekend. i'm going to burlington,ma for national american miss massachusetts!! i dont' want my mom to go tho. she pisses me off everytime i go anywhere with her. shes such a stage mom. if you've ever seen any of those tv shows with the child pageants and the moms...yeah well thats my mom pretty much. so watev. yeah im excited sorta...lindseys going. that girls fucking crazy. like seriously. i dont even know why she wants to hang out with me ..she just calls me fat or ugly every chance she gets. wateverrr. peace.
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[20 Jul 2006|09:14pm] |
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so last tuseday me and isabel went to the ashlee simpson concert. it was pretty sweeet. the veronicas wern't there tho!!! i was so mad. we were standing in line for ice cream and then i look at sum sign and i was like. wtf why is ashley parker angel here..i thoguth it was the veronicas??!?!? and isabel was like omg no. and then we were both like. i don't even like ashlee simpson. wtf. but then the concert was good and she sounded amazing. but im not gunna lie...ashley parker angel was pretty..amazing as well...hahah. jelarjel so gorg.
i got my permit like a week ago. and so far i havn't done THAT much damage. i've gone on some sidewalks..taken out some light reflectors..there was that biker. but we're not gunna go there. lets just say im not the world's GREATEST driver. i'm not that bad but my mom like holds on for dear life while i drive. i don't think thats a good sign. its fun i guess. i cna't back up tho i almost like hit this truck. oh well.
so today i hung out with kevinn!! the one from michigan. not the former boyfreind one. we went to the beach and then on my boat and then out to lunch and starbucks. isabel came along. it was a fun time. and hes gorg. tres tres tres gorg. yeah so now its like huricaning out. damn. i wanted to go to the vinyard tomorow.
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[08 Jul 2006|10:35pm] |
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i havn't updated in soooo long. and im wicked bored so i decided to. well monday was my birthday and it was awesome. hahha my whole family was up from like north carolina and florida and stuff so i got extra stuff. kevin took me out to dinner. then we went to see the fireworks and i met up with my long lost bestest freind kelso baker hahaah. it was so great to see her again. and i finally got the video ipod i always wanted, 200$,100$ to the gap, and 25$ to victoria's secret! i think im going shopping tomorow with issy. and then on tuseday im going to the ashlee simpson concert in boston. im wicked excited hahah its like the most embarrasing concert to go to. but im not gonna lie..hahah i love all her songs. and the veronicas, who are also going, are like one of my favorite bands too. fkjelrkewjlakr can't wait.
im soo glad its summerrr. haha i got a job at firefly. hhaha i think i got fired. oh well. i hate hate hate working. especially bussing. it suckss. a lot. and ohh yeah i was casually myspaceing today. and i come across a comment with a quote from my livejournal. hmm very cool?? your fucking gay hahahaha.
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[12 Jun 2006|07:19pm] |
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i havn't updated in a while. i'm SOO glad its almost summer. we only have 5 days of school left and im pumped. this weekend im goin over isabel's and we're having a partay. hahahaha. its been wayyyy too long. yeah and me and ashley and lindsey are freinds again. idk im happy about it i guess?? i mean i can tell lindsye pretty much anything. and ashleys coool too. yeah and me and ash r going to the vinyard on monday on that soph. class trip thing. i havnt even started studying for finals yet. so im pretty much screwd..watev.
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[23 May 2006|09:27pm] |
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i've read all my entries in this journal today. and its pretty much the biggest joke of my life. i dont' even know why i write in it. its supposed to be a journal.aka where you write down your actual thoughts. i dont even do that. i write about a false person thats not even me. i figured no one really reads this anyways..so why should i care. me and bobby broke up. like anyone cares..but i think i should write it. i didn't when it happened because i didnt' want to but now i dont' really care. ironicly, im not sad at all. you learn a lot about a person after you break up or have a fight..same with freinds. i.e lindsey..who i'm freinds with again by the way. its pretty gay but in a way its good. you actually know who they are and relize your better off anyways. and to put it simply...i learned a lot it was inevitable. ..jon and ben came down this weekend. and seeing him made me relize how much of an idiot i was. he got a girlfreind. and im trying to be happy for him..but im really not. in a way i think he got one in spite of me. but who knows. he doens't talk to me like he used to now wich makes me really sad.
anyways me and lindsey are freinds again. and i think this is a good thing. i've never quite had a freind like her. besides kelsey. shes so dramatic and actually listens to what i have to say and gives me opinions on it rather than just going ..ohhh thats nice watev cya. not a lot of people like her. and i guess its beacuse she really does tell it like it is. and i used to try to distance myself from her so people wouldnt' know i was her friend. looking back, i cna't even beleive i did that, i'm a horrible perosn. now i really could care less. i dont' have any freinds anyway sooo i don't really care if you like my freinds or not. but now i have someone to talk to which makes me happy rather than just keeping everything to myself..wich wasnt' working all that well for a while there.
saturday i hung out with kev kav and isabel at starbucks to do "homework". i dont' think we did any. after we went to my house and played "manhunt" with ben and jon and pauliwog. "manhunt" means ding dong ditch in case you were wondering...and yes we're over the age of 12 i dont' care. it was fun. another day of mcas tomorw...can't wait to fail.
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[20 May 2006|11:38am] |
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yesterday me and isabel went to boston! it was soooo fun. we went to the museam of fine arts and then coply plaza. we went to sum really weird resturant that served stuff like "cous cous" watever that is and everything was like 30$. i was like...can't we just got o chili's??? hahah. but yeah then we took the T all by ourselves to coply plaza. i thought we were lost for a while. but then we found it. yeah. coply plaza is pretty much RIDICULOUS (haha i don't think i spelled that right). all the stores r like louis vutittion and dior and stuff. it was so depressing cuz i couldnt' afford anything. but then we got cheesecake at the cheesecake factory and that pretty much made my life cuz it was sooooo good. yup then we went home and i watched narnia for the 4380928403th time then fell asleep. hah yeahhh. cool night. but today i guess im going to mr. falmouth with isabel and kevin kavinof. randomest thing of life right. and after we're going to starbucks to do drivers ed homework. yeahhh.
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[15 May 2006|10:06pm] |
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yeahh so i stayed home today. haha i dont' even know why i just like didnt' wake up and then it was 10 30 and no one was home so i was like cool. i did absolutly nothing today exept watch national treasure and a cinderella story. i skipped drivers ed too. wich i probly shouldn't've done..ughhh now i have to make it up. sweet. then i went to the book store and got some new books...then starbucks. i usually hate starbucks but i got an iced coffe and it was actually good. soo yeah. then i came home and finally got crackin on that damn thesis paper about pearl harbor. hahaha i didnt' even do anything. my dad did the whole thing. hes a history major and he knew like everything on my topic. so it sounds really professional? haha idk watev. soo finanly finished that at like 9. then we randomly went to golden sails for chinese food. i had a strong urge to watch pear harbor..but then i relized it was ilke a 42804930 hour long movie and im wickedddd tired. fucking school tomorow ..i hate make up work......
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you know that feeling you get wen your crying and can't even breathe.
yeah thats how i felt last night.
but me and isabel decided we're going to the veronicas concert in july. so thats cool.
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